Sunday, May 10, 2015
DAY 14: Happy Mother's Day
We are so fortunate to live in a world where the role of mother has infinite definitions, they are all different but all positively beautiful.
I will never forgot the first night after Liam was born. Everyone had left, visiting hours over—I laid him next to me, he just stared at me and I had no idea what to do with him. It hit me that I was responsible for him and I was instantly afraid. How was I going to keep this fragile baby alive, let alone raise him? I remember feeling very alone in that moment, and yet looking into those eyes I also knew there was nothing I wouldn’t do for him.
And so began the journey into motherhood. There have been a lot more bumps than I had imagined, but so far I am loving this ride, as wild as it is! And I have learned so much, through their eyes there are limitless possibilities—that’s something I had lost along the way, but so happy to find it once again alongside them.
And watching them become who they are is simply magical. Liam who a little over a year ago couldn’t decide if he was a righty or a lefty, now makes the best art ever (with his left hand!) and Connor’s calm determination is, at times, truly inspiring. We are not perfect, we have some not-the-best moments, but it’s a package deal, right? You have to endure the rain for the flowers to bloom.
As I write this there is a calm here, Connor playing with toys on the floor and Liam drawing next to me and I realize, this is it. This is one of those beautiful moments I didn’t think possible and yet here we are—and it’s just as good as I had hoped it would be that first night in the hospital.
Annnd now Connor is yelling and I have to run!