Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Mind Over Matter, Matters of the Mind
This summer I started having panic attacks and they go a little like that.
And I didn't tell anyone.
I was embarrassed, ashamed that I let my mind rule my body. I looked at these moments as my weakest. I told myself to snap out of it, to be rational, to just knock it off. But all it did was make it worse.
One day I called a friend who I knew would understand. In that moment, I felt a shift. Since then I have felt a little lighter and I have been talking about it more and more—and discovering that other women, especially moms, are going through similar things….
I am not better, but I am a little better and you know what? A little better is a little better. I know there is a light, that this is cope-able, if not fixable, and that I won't feel like this forever.
I am posting this as a way to free myself a little more from the anxiety and to say to anyone else experiencing this that I get it, I understand, let's take a deep breath and move forward together.